I did not finish my half marathon

After 12k I was told they are closing the course, you can go on but there will no longer be support. 

My eyes were still on the goal of finishing, a few strides later I thought of how hot it was. Then my strides turned into steps and I thought that maybe drinking gatorade out of my hands was not the best way to get through a half marathon. Then I stopped, and called upon my people. 

I’m sad, disappointed and frustrated. I felt like “Whoa I could actually do this!” but that dang lesson learning eh?? That I don’t want to do hard things alone anymore. The crowd cheers, water served and loved ones pride helped so much…to do the rest without the resources, in 30+ heat was a bad idea. I stopped. I felt all the feelings and gave this particular goal, at this particular time, up. 

I can do hard things, and can do them better, safer and with more joy with support, care and trusting of others when they say it's done.